im ready

  
I was supposed to get a Phd today. It was the only thing I had left 

Instead, my mom is dead, I’m in a job I hate and I want to die. I’m almost 40. I’m alone and I can’t keep trying things that won’t work

If anyon is interested in doing this together message me. There’s comfort in not having to die alone

Anhedonia

I started taking some meds. I can’t see a way out. At all. 
The Dr said it might take a month to kick in. I don’t think my life is worth saving. I don’t care. I just want it to be over.