Free rose from the grocery store.
“You see, once you get through the worst part of a trauma, once you realize it won’t actually kill you, once you realize that you still care enough to pick yourself up and keep on living, you become capable of experiencing profound joy.”
I’m not on the other side and I don’t know if I’ll every find that joy she speaks of. That’s what makes me scared to wake up tomorrow. I don’t want to be sad, but I have no idea how to find joy.
Please don’t misconstrue this as an overly perky “He’s out there and I know God has him waiting for me!!!” post. Being single is horrible. This post isn’t for people who don’t want to be in a relationship; it’s for those of us who would settle for questionable behavior just to have a relationship because it’s been close to a decade since you’ve been in one. We need something to do in the meantime otherwise we’ll kill ourselves for having no options.
If you are single and Type A, I think you’ll enjoy this article titled “Single and Happy” because it’s practical. The author provides a plan for enhancing six dimensions of a woman’s life that help her feel more fulfilled. Practical = 👍
If you’re looking for a more in-depth resource about creating a well-rounded single life, I recommend “With or Without a Man: Single Women Taking Control of Their Lives.” This book is the primer on how to make sure you’re meeting your needs (career, friendships, your home etc.) regardless of a man being present in your life. It’s unlike any singles book you’ve read before. I followed the methods for awhile in my 20s, but never fully embraced it for fear I would never find someone. (I still didn’t so I should’ve stuck with it. Now, it’s back to the beginning.)
I’m doing Single and Happy monthly. Please share if you are too. #SAH
I just started a grief support group this week at church. I know: I seem like the last person who should set foot in a church, lest it come crumbling down at my feet. I’ve become so bitter and hard since my mom died. She’s the one person who I felt loved me for me. I was enough, just as I was. I don’t even feel that way about God. She died just before (hours) my birthday and I felt like that confirmed his dislike for me.
However, I need to deal with her death. I thought I had, but there’s still so much anger regarding the circumstances before and after she died that it’s spilled over into every other part of my life. I’m also become a quasi-hermit who happens to have a full time job. The first group session was hard, but I kept it together for the most part. I’m also going to try private counseling session.
I’m also getting a gun permit in case it doesn’t work. I’ve run out of options and I can’t live like this for another 30+ years.